January 1, 2020.
What an innocent day, looking back. I started off the year hiking House Mountain just outside of Knoxville, then shared my recap of 2019, that included hopes and goals for 2020.
On that day, Covid was simply something happening in China. I had no clue how it would affect this year. No one did. On a lighter note, I also had no clue that I’d meet my now husband on Facebook just days later. Read more about that here.
So yeah, along with the rest of the earthly population, my expectations for 2020 and the reality of living 2020 were vastly different.
Truthfully, though, I’m not upset about it.
Yes, I had my share of disappointments, challenges, and sadness. This year, my grandma died, my dad was hospitalized with Covid, several trips were canceled, and more. All hard stuff.
But, I also met John, married John, bought a house, visited twelve states (not including Tennessee), started a new job, and my newest nephew was born. All joyful experiences—most of which I didn’t see coming on January 1, 2020.
This year taught me so much more about trusting God, and I’m grateful for that! If I’m being totally honest, I started the year thinking I was doing pretty well, giving God my plans—as I’d been learning to do over the past few years. But giving God my plans every single day? That was a struggle. Is still a struggle. Will always be a struggle because I’m human. This year absolutely humbled me to acknowledge my reliance on God’s strength and wisdom every single day.
Overall, 2020 tested my optimism. My mindset. My contentment and joy. At times I was sad. Frustrated. Unsure. I complained. Got angry. Etc. Though I gave myself grace for feeling those emotions, I also didn’t allow myself to dwell in them. Instead, I chose to redirect my focus on God and trust Him with my feelings and my life—one day at a time.
Despite its challenges, 2020 was a life-changing year in beautiful ways I didn’t expect. And today, on the cusp of 2021, I’m even more determined to live each day with hope and zeal instead of fear, dread, or doubt. My goal for 2021 is simply this: to treat each day as a gift, be content whatever the circumstances, and live fueled on God’s strength—not my own.
Flipping a calendar page won’t magically change the reality of any situation; but, what can change is mindset. I sincerely hope that, as we all bid farewell to a challenging year, a powerful, collective hope will abound for each new day of life we’re given.
Happy New Year from the Mullers ♡